Before anyone accuses me of being a whiner, let me state for the record that, despite my current circumstances, I consider myself to be greatly blessed. For one, I am still alive and breathing, which was hammered home to me in several situations, is a blessing not to be taken for granted. I have an incredible family whom I love with all my heart and soul. It is because of my love for them that I feel much shame over not being able to be come up with the answers or resources during our current trials. As broken as it is, we have a nice home on a nice little piece of ground. And, so far, nobody in our home has ever had to go to bed hungry. I don't have to look far to find people who are dealing with far worse than our current troubles; people who are facing hunger, homelessness, crippling and fatal diseases, abuse, violence, death, and war. In a global perspective, our current problems are probably laughable. Yet, they are our problems and we struggle with them.
God has given me a wonderful wife who tries patiently to remind me, as I'm stressing and panicking, that the Lord has always been there for us and seen us through the hard times. It is a new thing for me but she reminds me that I should be faithfully speaking God's promises as we pray and seek answers for our difficulties. In my natural mind, there is anxiety, doubt and fear. Yet in my spirit, I know God is faithful. I do not understand why things do not always happen the way we would have them happen. I am not God's equal so I cannot totally understand His mind and His purposes. Yet I have seen His goodness and His mercy in my life and have experienced seemingly unthinkable results when I have pursued Him. I know that He is capable of anything and that He wishes goodness for all His children. So, despite my weaknesses of anxiety and fear, I stand fast on His promises as I pray and wait to see in what way He will move. Below are just a few of the scriptures that I am meditating on through these tough times. I hope that in sharing them you will be blessed by them. There are so many more. Feel free to share!
Jeremiah 29:13New International Version (NIV)13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
1 Chronicles 16:10New International Version (NIV)
10 Glory in his holy name;
let the hearts of those who seek the LORD rejoice.
Isaiah 40:29New International Version (NIV)
29 He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
2 Corinthians 5:7New International Version (NIV)7 For we live by faith, not by sight.
Matthew 11:28New International Version (NIV)
28 Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.